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Cool Stuff Coming Up

Hello blog world! Just thought I’d quickly update here. I’m busybusybusy getting ready for the Victory of Light Expo this Saturday and Sunday, November 17 and 18. This is the largest expo in the Cincinnati area, and it’s chock-full of exciting lectures, shopping, healers, and readers. Come out and experience the wonderful energy, do some holiday shopping, get some guidance from Spirit, and learn something new! I will be doing private readings for $35 (per 15 minutes) in my booth as well as selling and signing all of my metaphysical books. I will also lecture on Saturday at 12 noon on “Life on the Other Side” (including Spirit messages for the audience), and on Sunday, I will participate in a Gala Mediumship Demonstration with several other mediums starting at 1 pm.

I am also very excited that this weekend, my wonderful partner, Joanne Franchina of Inner Compass, and I will unveil our new year-long Mediumship Mastery Program. This is a serious instruction program geared for anyone who is committed to becoming a psychic medium. I will have more details next week after we present it all at the Expo this weekend, so stay tuned.

With that, I send you all peace, love, and blessings!!

A WIP and the ULE

For the last two weeks, I’ve been working on my new writing project every spare moment I get. The work-in-progress (WIP–and, dare I say, novel-to-be?) is another fantasy romance inspired by Arthurian legend. What is it with me and this theme? Anyway, it’s always exciting when the words want to flow. Too bad life, and other responsibilities, get in the way.

To that end, I wanted to let everyone know that I’ll be at the Universal Light Expo in Columbus, Ohio this Saturday, October 13 and Sunday, October 14. I will be in booth 713, where I will be giving private readings and selling all of my books. This expo is enormous, and there are tons of great people, products, lectures, and energy for everyone to enjoy. If you’re in the Columbus area, stop by and spend some time with us. On Sunday at 11 am, you can even come and see me demonstrating mediumship with several other wonderful light workers.

These expos, while fun and exciting, always wear me out. But I hope to get back to writing bright and early on Monday!

Blessings to all!

Image above copyright Eve Sakmar Sullivan

Summer So Far

Ye gods! I just realized that the last time I posted on my blog was MOTHER’S DAY WEEKEND!

I am a blog loser.

Well, I won’t beat myself up too much. It’s been a busy summer. I hit the ground running in June when my boys wrapped up their school year, and I traveled to Pennsylvania to teach a Tarot workshop for my good friend Gloria at her beautiful Spirit Education Center and Sanctuary. When I came home, I was ready to party with my theatre friends to celebrate the end of another successful community theatre season here in Cincinnati. By that time, it was July, and I celebrated my birthday with good friends in Columbus, Ohio. Here’s a glimpse of the festivities:

Yummy cake batter-flavored martinis created by my friend Jonathan. And  my husband baked a yellow cake with homemade caramel icing. I know, you’re jealous!

Once my birthday was over, it was time to pack and head to beautiful Lily Dale, New York to teach some workshops. I never tire of walking the lovely grounds there, working for Spirit at the outdoor message services, and meeting new people to share ideas and experiences. If you are at all interested in metaphysics, you should definitely plan a trip to Lily Dale for a future summer holiday. Here are some photos that might capture your interest:

The welcoming gate sign at the entrance to Lily Dale.

The Lily Dale Auditorium, where many famous speakers and mediums have addressed crowds.

The lovely Healing Temple, a space filled with amazing peaceful healing vibrations.

A gorgeous view of the lake from the Lily Dale grounds.

One of the gorgeous Victorian homes on the grounds. Need a new place to live?

While in Lily Dale, I also got to meet up with one of my best buddies, my dear friend, fellow author Char Chaffin. Without Char, my novel Merlyn’s Raven would not have seen the light of day. Here we are together for breakfast:

Photo taken by Char’s wonderful husband, Don, who was good enough to share his wife with me that morning. 

My workshops were well-received, and I truly enjoyed my time at Lily Dale. Coming home just last week, I celebrated my 22nd wedding anniversary with my husband. And now I realize it’s time to get back in the swing of things here at home. Only a few more weeks of summer remain until my boys go back to school. Time moves so fast, and we are left with our jaws hanging open, saying, “When did that happen?”

I have quite a few more things on my plate this summer. I am offering a one-day Tarot class on Saturday, August 4 at my office. I am starting a 6-week Mediumship Development class for beginners on Wednesday, August 8. On Saturday, August 18, I will go to Camp Chesterfield in Indiana to teach a 3-hour workshop on Protection. Lexington, Kentucky is my last destination of the summer, when I travel to Patti Starr’s Mystical Paranormal Fair on Saturday, August 25 for a book signing and gallery-style message event. Details for all of these events are available at the websites tagged above or on my website’s events calendar. If you are in the neighborhood and so inclined, I hope you’ll join me for some summer fun.

So now, I’ve got to wrap up this blog. My boys are learning to drive this summer, and it’s time to leave for our dental check-ups. The Universe continues to bless me with plenty to keep me busy. I hope you find the blessings in your everyday life, too.

See you soon!


Getting Ready…

It’s almost here.

On Tuesday, April 17, 2012, I will realize a lifelong dream. My first novel will be released through Soul Mate Publishing.

It’s so hard to believe. I have worked so long and so hard on this story, it seems surreal that other people will finally read it. I hope they enjoy it. I am honestly petrified about the possibility of negative reviews. That may seem silly, considering that I’ve published three other books and never worried an iota about what others thought of them. Maybe that sounds pompous, but it’s not really about my ego. My other three books are nonfiction metaphysical works, and I’ve studied and worked with my spiritual path for so very long, it’s a natural part of who I am. I no longer worry about what people think when they find out I’m a medium and a Spiritualist. If people look at me funny because of my beliefs, I simply dismiss it. My identity does not revolve around their approval of my philosophies or religious traditions. Being a medium is another part of who I am, and if they can’t accept that, it’s fine with me. I don’t feel any need to defend myself or to try to convince them that they should like or believe me.

Writing a piece of fiction is very different. Many artistic folks describe the creative process as comparable to birthing a child, and for me, this is an accurate metaphor. Your book is like a child, and you don’t want anyone bullying it, making fun of it, or tearing it down. It hurts you to see someone not understand it or think it’s silly or trite, because to you, it’s the most beautiful thing in the world. Again, this isn’t about ego–it’s about the painful creative process you put into it, and you want the end product to be appreciated and valued. I also think about all of the wonderful stories and books I’ve read over the years, and I remember how very special so many of them are to me. The magical experience of reading a book and being transported to another world is something I genuinely treasure. As a writer, I hope to bring a similar experience to people who read my books. There are characters who have left indelible impressions on me, and I hope that my characters will touch the hearts of those who read about them, too. Is this ego? Yes, I suppose it is. Our ego drives us to achieve the very best we can, and I hope that I’ve written the best book I am capable of writing. But my ego also wants readers to like it.

I suppose time will tell. I just finished my final edits for the book, and now it is out of my hands. On April 17, I will see the finished product as an e-book, and in a few months, I will hold the printed book in my hands. And I truly hope that Gwendydd, Myrddin, and all of my other characters will come to life for my readers and entertain them in a memorable way. As with every challenge in my life, I struggle, but I promise to work on releasing my fear, my doubt, and my anxiety, and I trust that Spirit will lead the right folks to my book, the ones who will appreciate it and love it for what it offers.

This is really the best that any of us can do. And I feel extraordinarily blessed to be given this experience. I hope you’ll all join me on this new journey.

Sending you all blessings and love.

After the Fair


I’ve been recuperating for the last couple of days. This past weekend, I spent many hours at the Victory of Light Expo, greeting well-wishers, selling and signing books, and mostly, doing readings. I was there all day on Saturday and Sunday, so Monday and Tuesday were my days this week to rest and rejuvenate.

I used to do a lot of metaphysical festivals like this one when I first started reading Tarot professionally. I was about 22  years old when I worked at my first festival (hard to believe it’s been almost 20 years ago!), and I was eager to meet more folks who were interested in esoteric and occult things. The vendors sold crystals, jewelry, books, and magickal trinkets, so many temptations that there were several fairs where I blew almost all the money I made on stuff for myself. I made appointments to receive wonderful healing treatments like massages, reflexology sessions, and energy work, floating away on a cloud of happiness after my sessions were over. And yes, I even saw other psychics for insights into my own life in many reading sessions. I always enjoy receiving a reading from a fellow worker, fascinated as I am to discover new reading techniques and methods that might enhance my own professional work. Needless to say, for many years, I looked forward to these inspiring weekends, even though I worked, too. Providing readings thrilled me; I enjoyed helping people solve their problems through Tarot and intuitive counseling. Most seemed to appreciate my input and were happy to have the insights I could provide.

I still enjoy going to the fairs, even though I don’t do quite as many of these events as I once did. I prefer doing readings in quieter settings, and I like not having to rush through a reading to get it done in 15 minutes. Over the years of doing festivals, I’ve also had to take better care of myself. I tend to get very run-down after a long day at an event; I think it has to do with keeping my energy higher in order to stand between the worlds to speak to Spirit. The Natural Law of Vibration, which rules mediumship, tells us that our vibrations have to be higher in order to work with spirit energies. The spirit folks have to slow their high vibrations down, and we meet somewhere in the middle in order to communicate. When I work, I tend to crank my vibration pretty high in order to make a strong connection to Spirit. I’ve been told by some of my own teachers (those here in the physical world) that I need to stop doing this, that Spirit can come to me, that I’m going to burn myself out big time if I can’t stop doing this–so I try not to work my energy up into such a high place like I once did. But I still tend to do between 13 and 20 15-minute readings a day at a festival, and that’s a lot of different energies to get in and out of quickly and efficiently. By the end of the day, I’m usually wiped out. I do try to take more breaks now, and I eat more frequently to ground myself and to keep my physical energy in a good place. Still, the fairs take a lot out of me, and this most recent expo was no exception.

And yet, I had a good time. I feel very grateful for and blessed by all of the people who came to see me over the weekend. I lectured at the fair about my new book, Ask a Medium, and that lecture was extremely well-attended. I received good feedback about it. I love lecturing; teaching is my true passion, and being able to connect with folks in this sort of a setting is always fun. It’s wonderful to talk to a large group of like-minded people, too, those who are truly interested in investigating the spirit world and who believe in the validity of after-death communication. It uplifts me to see so many seekers, those who are truly trying to walk the Path of Light in this world.

I also love re-connecting with other metaphysical friends I don’t get to see very often at the festivals. Granted, there might not be as much time to do this when I’m working so hard, but usually, I can sneak in some great hugs and chatter in between readings, before we begin for the day, or when I’m on a break. We have a lovely community of people here in the Greater Cincinnati area who are bringing light to so many others, and I love having a few minutes to catch up with friends and fellow workers. These moments make me so proud of what I do, and they help me to feel as if I’m a part of a larger web of energy, one that illuminates a very special and important agenda in the Universe.

And I do love helping those who seek me out. Spirit reminds me a of a lovely groups of sisters who brought their dad to the festival. I am sometimes intimidated when asked to read for men (I know–it’s my issue, one I’ve been working on for years now, but it still rears its ugly head at times), and I was a little nervous when this gentleman sat down in my chair. But I put my faith in my spirit people, my lovely guides who help me make my connections in the spirit realms, and Mara, my joy guide, immediately connected me to this man’s wife, who had passed within the last year. It was a tremendous blessing to be able to bring her through to him, and I know that this man was relieved to hear from her. I had many readings over the weekend, and I couldn’t begin to remember them all (I very rarely remember anything about my readings–I don’t think I’m supposed to remember them), but I know I will always recall the feeling of happiness and peace that this connection brought to that man.

What a powerful, inspiring thing to be able to do! Can you see why I feel so humbled and so honored to do this work? It is moments like those that I live for, moments like those that I try to focus on when the work is hard, or when I am tired, frustrated, or unsure. These are the moments that Spirit brings us to remind us of our larger connections in the Universe.

So, this week, I rest. I still work, but I don’t (thankfully) have as many clients this week. I think Spirit arranges that, too, so I can relax a bit and try to dwell in a more peaceful, calming energy.

I hope your week unfolds in the same kind of loving, gentle energy. Blessings to all! xo

Spring Stuff


It’s been awhile since I’ve posted here, but I’ve been trying to plan new events and get everything together as my kids go on spring break. There is painting to be done in our household, which will take up some of our vacation days, and my husband’s birthday is actually on Easter this year, which means we’ll be entertaining his family. So much to do, so little time–even with the Wheel of the Year turning, some things remain constant!

I did want to take a moment, though, to re-connect with you folks in cyberspace, and to let you know about some upcoming events that I’ll be doing. Here’s the low-down:

I’ll be appearing (and disappearing, ha ha) at the Victory of Light Expo on Saturday, April 10 and Sunday, April 11, 2010 at the Sharonville Convention Center in Sharonville, Ohio. On Saturday at noon, I’ll present Ask A Medium, a talk based on my new book of the same name. The presentation will also include Spirit messages for the audience members. I will also be doing a limited number of personal readings for clients at my booth on the lower level of the convention hall, and I will sell copies of all of my books as well as sign for those who would like an autograph. Be sure to arrive early if you’d like to sign up for a reading–the spots usually go fast! For more information about the festival, times, admission fees, and the like, please visit the expo’s website.

Along with my office partner Joanne Franchina of Inner Compass, I am thrilled to welcome one of my favorite teachers, Sharon Anne Klingler, to the Cincinnati area. Sharon will present a weekend of events and workshops sure to please everyone interested in mediumship and their own personal path to spiritual fulfillment. Read on for a full description of Sharon’s events:

A WEEKEND OF WORKSHOPS with Sharon Anne Klingler


SHARON ANNE KLINGLER is an internationally known author and medium. Her books include Intuition & Beyond, The Secrets of Success with Sandra Taylor, Travel Into Your Past Lives, Drawing on Your Intuition, Divine Connections, Life with Spirit, and her acclaimed program, Speaking to Spirit, a home-study seminar for intuitive development and spirit communication. She has been featured in many newspapers and magazines and on major television and radio outlets in Australia, Canada, England, and the U.S. Sharon maintains a private practice in mediumship and other metaphysical disciplines with high profile clients around the world. She lectures throughout the U.S., Europe, Australia, Canada, and New Zealand.
Register for all three workshops by April 16 for only $160, a savings of $20!

MESSAGES FROM BEYOND with Sharon Anne Klingler

Make the spirit connection! Let your guides and loved ones in spirit bring you their insights through Sharon’s dynamic clairvoyance and guided imagery exercises. You will feel the presence of spirit as Sharon shares their messages for many audience members. She will also lead you through exciting processes that help you to connect with your spirit loved ones and guides yourself.

Friday, April 23, 7 – 9 pm.
$25; Early registrations (by April 16) $20.
Sharon Anne Klingler, guest instructor.


This workshop is more than a peek into the mystical powers and histories that lay hidden from the average person; it is a precise training in their application and use. The Seven Rays are the fuel that drives each activity. Learn how to apply these powerful forces to your own initiation. This workshop covers:

The Seven Rays & the Ascended Masters

Synchronicity of ray power in occupational, spiritual & personal directives.
Balancing polarized ray forces & utilizing energy phases.
Learning from the mystic Masters: ancient exercises in energy, prophecy & healing
Your Initiation & Discipleship

Forces of initiation: a spiritual tsunami.
Energy discernment: influence & confluence of power.
Levels of initiation: revelation into body, mind & mystery.
Advancement to power: Your work on the higher & lower ground
Saturday, April 24, 9:30 am – 4:30 pm (includes a break for lunch).
$95; Early registrations (by April 16) $90.
Sharon Anne Klingler, guest instructor.


Learn about the past and future in your evolution. Find out about the rites of initiation; discover your past lives in the ancient mystery schools; and map out where you’re headed next in your work with the Masters. (For special processes, please bring any gemstones or pieces of jewelry that may have significance for you). This workshop includes:

Investigating Your Ancient Histories & Present Powers

Past-life regression to the secret societies.
Freemason & mystical initiation practices.
Living a mystic’s life in a modern world.
Your Future in the Plan

Rites of initiation (and their physical & spiritual influences).
Triplicities of power in mystical & practical use.
Daily techniques for increasing your magnitude of power.
Global initiation: your future work with the Masters.
Sunday, April 25, 9:30 am – 1:30 pm.
$60; Early registrations (by April 16) $55.
Sharon Anne Klingler, guest instructor.

To register for any of Sharon’s events (and you DON’T want to miss any of them, believe me!), you can visit my website to download forms.


I am very excited about my upcoming TAROT INTENSIVE WEEKEND Workshop, scheduled for Friday, May 14 through Sunday, May 16, 2010. To register for this event, please visit my website, but read on to see all of the cool stuff we’ll be doing:

Ancient and mysterious, Tarot cards have fascinated humanity for centuries. The Tarot can be used as a divination tool, a meditation focal point, a sounding board for ideas, and a source of great inspiration. Whether you are a beginning reader or a seasoned Tarot professional, this intense weekend devoted to Tarot study and work will bring you deeper meanings for yourself and your interaction with this wise and venerable tradition.

Friday evening will include the following:

➢ Tarot overview and a brief history, including the Major and Minor Arcanas, the suits and their meanings, numerology and symbolism in Tarot, and how to care for your deck. A special Tarot connection experience will be conducted.

Saturday will include the following:

➢ Handling and shuffling the Tarot
➢ Spreads versus throws: what’s the difference and when to use what
➢ Exploring interactions between the cards
➢ Telling a story with Tarot
➢ Timing in Tarot
➢ Finding key ideas in spreads and throws
➢ Divination with Tarot
➢ Meditation exercises with key Tarot cards to enhance the student’s spiritual connection to the Divine and the oracle

Sunday will include the following:

➢ Tapping your intuition using Tarot
➢ Court cards in Tarot: who are these people?
➢ Reversed cards
➢ Card combinations
➢ Sample spreads to use for specific types of questions
➢ How to design your own Tarot spreads
➢ Using different decks to deepen and enhance readings

And much, much more!

This weekend experience will include many interactive experiences with the Tarot, and students will be expected to conduct readings using the cards for themselves and for others. All students will be awarded a certificate of completion at the end of the weekend.

Required: A standard 78-card Tarot deck. The Rider-Waite deck is preferred, but any is acceptable. Bring as many decks as you like, but you must have at least one to work with in class.

DATE: Friday, May 14 — Sunday, May 16, 2010
TIME: 7 p.m. to 9:30 p.m. Friday
10 a.m. to 4 p.m. Saturday (one hour lunch break)
10 a.m. to 4 p.m. Sunday (one hour lunch break)
PRICE: $165 if registered by April 25, 2010
$195 after April 25, 2010 or at the door


And, to enhance the Tarot workshop, I’ll facilitate a new TAROT WISDOM CIRCLE beginning Wednesday, June 9, 2010. In this fun, informal setting, we’ll explore lots of different ways to use and read Tarot. The circle will be open to anyone at any skill level, and you can participate in as many meetings of the Circle that you like. Sessions will cost $12 per night, or you can buy 5 sessions for only $50. We’ll meet for 10 Wednesday evenings from 7 to 8:30 p.m. throughout the summer at my office in Blue Ash. I think this will be an exciting, experiential way for us all to deepen our connection to Tarot, that inspiring and fascinating tool!


As you can see, I’ve got lots of interesting things planned as we move forward into spring. I hope you’ll be able to join me for some of these events.

And I’ll see you again soon here on the blog!

May your Easter/Ostara basket overflow with blessings!


A Past Life Tarot Spread

I’m working on putting together a fun and informative Tarot spread to present to our students when we present our Past Lives workshop this weekend. I’ve been reviewing past life spreads I’ve used in the past and “mixing and matching” different elements into a new spread. Here’s what I’ve come up with:

11 Cards, laid out in the following way:

Card 9………………………………………………………………………………………Card 11
Card 8………………………………………………………………………………………Card 10
…………………………………………….Card 7…………………………………………………..
…………………………………………….Card 6…………………………………………………..
…………………………………………….Card 5…………………………………………………..
…………………………………………….Card 4…………………………………………………..
…………………………………………….Card 3…………………………………………………..
Card 1………………………………………………………………………………………..Card 2

Card 1: Basic Soul Nature (yours or the querent’s)
Card 2: Present Life Issue
Card 3: Past Life Influence/Issue
Card 4: Environment/Early Life Influences in Past Life
Card 5: Accomplishments in Past Life
Card 6: Past Life Relationships
Card 7: Past Life Death/End of Life
Card 8: Lesson the Soul Wants to Learn
Card 9: How the Past Life Affects This Lifetime
Card 10: What is Needed to Learn This Lesson?
Card 11: What to Anticipate When/If the Lesson is Learned

I like this combination of information because it allows a reader or querent to see influences from a past life that affect his current life, but it also gives him a glimpse of his actual life circumstances in that past lifetime. Using intuition when looking at the pictures on the cards themselves can shed some additional light on the details of an incarnation.

When I did this modified spread for myself using the Rider-Waite deck, the following cards came up. My interpretations are in italics:

Card 1: Basic Soul Nature: Page of Pentacles.  A contemplative child who worries about security. A gazer/scryer who contemplates the mysteries of life. A slow, methodical person.

Card 2: Present Life Issue: 10 of Swords.  Debilitating worry. Negative thoughts that adversely affect progress of any nature.

Card 3: Past Life Influence/ Issue: 2 of Pentacles.  Juggling two rival energies. How to act in a tempest/storm. Excess energy not necessarily put to good use. Issues of balance and equilibrium.

Card 4: Environment/ Early Life in Past Life: Major Arcana The High Priestess.  A feminine energy with esoteric knowledge. The Goddess. Connections to mystical society with high expectations. Knowledge and feminine power.

Card 5: Accomplishments in Past Life: Major Arcana Death.  A major change. Death of old knowledge for something new. Movement away from one lifestyle to another. Re-birth.

Card 6: Past Life Relationships: 8 of Swords.  Restriction. Inability to stand up for self or to ask for help. A negative, abusive relationship or circumstance. Security that comes with too may restrictions or rules.

Card 7: Past Life Death/End of Life: 2 of Cups.  A good friendship or love connection based on respect, sharing, compassion. Reconciliation of a higher nature.

Card 8: Lesson the Soul Wants to Learn: Queen of Pentacles.  Self-sufficient woman of means and resources. The ability to rely on self or one’s own resources.

Card 9: How Past Life Affects You Now: Major Arcana The Fool.  No fear of the journey ahead. A need to trust in the Higher Power. The possibility of recklessness.

Card 10: What is Needed to Learn This Lesson? Major Arcana Temperance.  A peaceful attitude. The balance of the mundane and spiritual. Equilibrium in all aspects. Standing in two worlds. Angelic interventions.

Card 11: What to Anticipate When Lesson is Learned: 4 of Cups.  Choice coming from quiet contemplation. Offers from Spirit.

This reading makes a lot of sense to me. It seems to indicate that in a past life, I was raised in a mystical, esoteric community, probably one that was Goddess-based or matriarchal (The High Priestess). This resonates with me on a soul level; I know I’ve lived several lifetimes in societies like these. In this particular lifetime, however, I must’ve become upset or disillusioned with this lifetime and left it (Death), most likely to pursue a relationship outside of the society. That relationship was not all it seemed (8 of Swords) and left me feeling restricted and unhappy. At least at the end of my life, I was able to find a different relationship that worked on many levels (2 of Cups). My lesson in that lifetime, however, was all about balance and equilibrium, especially concerning the mundane and the spiritual (2 of Pentacles). In this lifetime, I am trying to learn how to keep negative thoughts from impeding my spiritual progression (10 of Pentacles). This resonates with my soul nature (Page of Pentacles), which is contemplative and interested in investigating the mysteries of the Universe. This past life is influencing me still; my soul understands the need to trust in the Higher Power and to have no fear of the path ahead (The Fool), but it is still working on these trust issues. To learn this lesson, I need peace and balance (Temperance). My work in between the worlds as a medium and with the angels can help me to learn this lesson. When I have learned it, I can look forward to more choices and contemplation of further soul lessons (4 of Cups).

Yes, that sounds good to me!

If you’re interested, give this Tarot reading a go, and let me know what you get in the comments below.

Blessings to you on this lovely Tuesday!

Honors and Other Scary Things

Yesterday, I went to a reception for local authors given by the Ohioana Library and the Cincinnati Public Library. I’d received an invitation in the mail and really didn’t know what to expect. I was pleasantly surprised to find such a large gathering of folks at the main branch of the public library, people who really seemed excited to welcome and honor local writers for their publishing successes. The reception consisted of introductions, a panel of sports writers talking about their work (it seems there are a bunch of Cincinnati writers penning books about the Reds!), and then a presentation of certificates to the authors themselves. During the presentation of the certificates, the hosts read a brief biography about each author, which they asked us to submit beforehand. When I’d accepted the invitation to the event, I’d dashed off my “normal” biography without a second thought and sent it in. It contains the usual information about my work as a medium ,writer, and instructor–no big changes, nothing unusual.

At least, not unusual to me. But as I sat in the audience yesterday, watching the other authors receive their certificates and listening to their biographies, I started to feel very nervous. Most of these people were professional writers with credentials as long as my arm. They taught at the university level or wrote for magazines and newspapers. Some had written countless books about heavy subjects like cancer, cardiology, the architecture of Cincinnati, or the history of the Catholic Church. Many of them had a “Doctor” in front of their names, and lots had awards out the yin-yang. And as I started sweating my background, I started to wonder how my biography would sound to all of these learned, intellectual people. What would they think of a clairvoyant medium? Would they chuckle and shake their heads over my references to Tarot reading or angels? I could just hear the snickers and the whispers as I sat there, my folded hands clutched together in an ever-tightening death grip.

Worse, what would my children think? They sat next to me, politely paying attention, well-trained from their 9 years in Episcopal school, where they sit through chapel services every week. Would they hear their mom’s biography and sink lower in their seats? Would they be embarrassed if someone in the audience laughed as I walked up to accept my certificate?

Boy, your mind can do terrible things to you, can’t it?

When my name was read out (and mispronounced, as usual), I stood and started up the aisle. It felt like I was walking in a dream, underwater, with no clothes on. I was glad I didn’t have to say anything except “thank you” to the woman handing out the certificates because I was afraid my voice wouldn’t work. When I turned to face the gathering, I spotted my husband on the side aisle, the family camera in hand. I tried to smile, but I’m sure it looked more like a grimace. I haven’t yet looked at the pictures he took; I think I’m afraid I’ll be as white as a sheet. Everything seemed amplified: the lights, brighter; the sound, magnified; my feelings of dread, intense enough to turn my stomach.

But you know what? No one laughed. At least, I didn’t see it if they did. I didn’t notice any disbelieving, shaking heads, either. And I wasn’t pelted with tomatoes. I made it back to my seat in one piece, and I sat there, staring at my certificate with the tremor in my hands melting away.

Now, why would I feel this way? Why would I assume the worst at a moment when I should be proud and happy?

It’s hard to say. Sometimes I am still afraid to speak up for my beliefs. There remains a small part of me that wants more than anything to be accepted, liked, and respected by everyone. EVERYONE. This is, I know, completely unrealistic, and yet I can’t deny that the feeling is there. I don’t like confrontation; I don’t like to have to fight for anything, because I’ve never been a good fighter. I prefer peace; I prefer compromise; I definitely prefer everyone getting along. But the world isn’t always like that, is it? Sometimes, you have to stick up for yourself. Sometimes, you have to voice an unpopular opinion because it’s the right thing to do. Sometimes, you have to realize that not everyone is going to agree with you, or, worse yet, that some people may downright not like you for what you believe, say, or do. And you have to be able to live with that.

Over the years, I know I’ve come a long way in this department. It has never been easy or comfortable for me to voice a dissenting opinion. It has been extremely difficult for me to show emotions like anger or grief because, as a child, I wasn’t allowed to have these feelings. I was expected to always be happy, sunny, and/or quiet. Only one person in my household was allowed to have feelings, and it wasn’t me. I have always been a peacemaker, a referee, the one who smoothes things over and makes it nice. I still do this; I accept that this is part of my nature, and it’s not necessarily a bad thing to embrace. And yet, I’ve learned some things about myself and the world around me. I’ve learned that I have the right to believe the things I do and to live the way I want to live, as long as I’m not hurting myself or anyone else in the process. I’ve learned it’s OK to demand respect and to have the expectation that I deserve it. I’ve learned that I’ve worked long and hard to get where I am, and in recognizing my own divinity, that I should love myself and the journey that has brought me to this place. I have learned that I can and should defend myself if I’m backed into a corner (there may be another post coming soon about this), and I should be proud of who I am, no matter what others think of me.

So, even though I’ve learned all of this, I still get nervous sometimes. Just like yesterday. And yet I was relieved and happy when things turned out well. I did belong at that reception. I worked arduously on my books, and it’s nice to receive some recognition for the work. And maybe, just maybe, someone will pick up one of the books who wouldn’t have before, because they remember seeing me there and thinking, “Well, isn’t that an interesting subject to explore?”

After the presentation, they served refreshments. As I stood in line for punch with my boys (who, after all, didn’t seem the least bit embarrassed to be seen with me), a lady approached and asked, “Are you the medium?”

“Yes,” I said with a smile.

“Can I have your card?”

I handed her one with steady hands. Will she call me? I don’t know. It doesn’t matter. All that matters is that I was there, and it was a good experience.

Blessings to you all this fine day.


Book Release Party Tonight!

I’m very excited about the book release party tonight for Ask a Medium: Answers to Your Frequently Asked Questions About the Spirit World. The party will kick off tonight (Friday, January 22, 2010) at 7 p.m. with an hour-long discussion and question-and-answer session about the book. Starting at 8 p.m., I’ll begin selling and signing books, and my terrific office partner, Joanne Franchina, will serve refreshments. I hope to have my husband take pictures of the event, so hopefully, I’ll post those soon.

If you’re in the Greater Cincinnati area, come on out for the festivities! The address of my office:

10901 Reed Hartman Highway
Blue Ash, Ohio 45242

I’d love to meet you there!

If you can’t make it tonight but can get to Hamilton, Ohio, tomorrow, I’m doing a lecture about the book and signing copies at Maiden, Mother, Crone (a small metaphysical shop) beginning at 1 p.m. The store is located at 343 South B Street, Hamilton, OH 45013-3311, and their telephone number is (513) 737-0059.‎ It will be great to connect with even more people there!

Happy Friday to all! I send you all love, peace, and blessings.

Dear Blog…

Dear Blog (and beloved blog readers),

I’m so sorry I’ve been neglecting you lately. There’s been a lot going on in my life. Some good things, some great things, some worrisome things–in a nutshell, life has been happening, and it’s been blowing past me at the speed of light.

Here are some good and great things that have happened:

1. I was cast in a play! I am playing the wonderful role of elderly German agent Lillian in Fairfield Footlighers’ production of I Hate Hamlet. I am very excited to be working on a creative project, and so far, I am loving every moment of it. I’ve been feeling a creative void recently, and acting always helps to fill that up for me. As a director, I’m also enjoying watching this production come together, and I admire the way Heidi, our director, handles everything with her no-nonsense, fun approach. I can’t wait to go to rehearsal, which I take as a very good sign. Maybe some of you will be able to come out and see the show, which opens on February 19. Ah, theatre–how I adore you!

2. Our son was awarded a $20,000 scholarship to Roger Bacon High School for the next four years. This is a huge accomplishment, and we are bursting with pride over the news. We are confident that both of our sons will do well at this institution, and we look forward to working with them towards more great achievements when they begin high school in the fall. Having the decision of where they’ll attend high school out of the way also relieves a tremendous burden from our list of worries. We’ve still got to get through the rest of this school year, though!


3. My new book, Ask a Medium: Answers To Your Frequently Asked Questions About the Spirit World, is now available for sale! I am very excited to have this book available to readers. I’ve tried to compile the questions that I’m most frequently asked by clients and other seekers concerning the spirit world, what happens when we die, why ghosts and spirits do certain things, and other sundry metaphysical topics, and I try to provide answers based on research and my own experiences as a medium. I hope readers will truly benefit from this book. And, in other good news: if you’re in the Cincinnati area, my office partner, Joanne, and I are hosting a ASK A MEDIUM discussion and booksigning on Friday, January 22. Starting at 7 p.m., I will talk about the book and answer audience questions. At 8 p.m., the book sales and signings will begin, and we will serve refreshments and socialize as well. Please come if you can, and bring your family and friends for a fun and enlightening evening. For the address for the event, visit my website.

3. The snow is finally melting. Enough said about that.

4. My husband and sons are healthy. Really, that’s important enough to write about, I think, because I’ve been down the unhealthy road before, and yes, I am grateful.

I’ve decided after looking at this list that the positives far outweigh the negatives. Life is good. I’m not even going to discuss the not-so-good things, thereby giving them no energy to thrive. In light of this, you’d think I’d have more time for the blogosphere, right?

Well, I’m going to try to make more time. It’s nice to sometimes gather all of my thoughts together and put out a post. It’s hard, though, to always come up with topics to write about. I don’t want to keep re-hashing the same old stuff.

So, if you have suggestions of what you’d like to see on the blog or information you’d like to read about, please feel free to leave a comment and let me know what it is.

Dearly beloved blog…friends….I’ll hopefully see you again soon.


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