This is a different kind of Tarot Tuesday post, because I’m in a different kind of mood.
In all honestly, I’m not sure what kind of mood I’m in. For the last several days, I’ve been feeling very out of sorts. I am distracted and edgy, and I can’t seem to concentrate for long periods on much of anything. I feel restless, like I need to be doing something, but I can’t put my finger on what it is I need to do. I have tons of things that I should be doing, but that is an entirely different matter. I have these bouts periodically, and they usually herald a significant change in my life. Sometimes it’s a new project or a new direction. This time, I’m not sure what it means–or, if it means anything at all. Maybe this particular full moon energy is just making me crazier than normal (I’m a Cancer–full moons usually effect me quite a lot in many different ways).
So tonight, I’m in a Hanged Man kind of mood. So instead of doing a reading, which may or may not have been especially on-target due to my unexplainable erratic energy, I thought it might be a good time to do a Tarot Meditation. I like to use the Tarot as a meditation tool. One way to do this is to select a card from the deck that you feel drawn to at this particular time and move into the card’s energy and pictured scene in a meditative experience. Let’s remember what the Hanged Man, Major Arcana 12, looks like in the Rider-Waite deck:
There he is, hanging by his one ankle, upside down. Notice that on either side of the tree branch (bar? wand? stave?) from which he hangs, there is a huge crop of new, growing leaves. He hangs easily from his ankle, not seeming to be in any pain or discomfort in this position, and his hands are behind his back, signifying submission. Around his head, we see the glow of his aura, or perhaps a symbolic representation of higher consciousness or wisdom, much like in famous paintings of saints and other great masters. What is happening here in this image? The Man hangs on his tree, content in his place, still, silent, contemplating. He is not bound or held there by anything but one small knot of rope and his own choice; he can release himself from this position at any time. And yet, he waits, silent, and we understand that enlightenment is what he seeks. He already has spiritual knowledge (the halo), but there is something else he seeks, and he goes within himself to find it, where the Divine dwells, patiently waiting.
Take a few moments yourself to look at this image. What speaks to you here? How do you feel as you gaze upon it? Notice your feelings, where they are in your body, what they feel like. Don’t analyze them; simply breathe and feel them, and allow them to be with you.
Now close your eyes, and see the image of the Hanged Man in your mind. As you watch, the image comes alive. Breathe and be with the Hanged Man in his position of supplication and acceptance. What in your life do you need to accept? Keep breathing, and find the acceptance of your own self in the quiet serenity of your mind. Be in this silence; be comfortable within it. There is nowhere else you need to be right now except in your own place of peace.
Now, as you stay in this peaceful place, see light within your mind. It may just be light, a calm, beautiful light. It may be another image, a picture or a word. Whatever it is, this is something you need right now in your life. Just notice what you see and know that you will understand it at a later time. Be present and do not allow your mind to wander away; give yourself the gift of undivided attention. Know that whatever you see, sense, hear, feel, or experience, you will remember it. This is the gift of the Divine, and the Hanged Man is the portal for you to receive it at this time.
Now…slowly open your eyes. What gift did you receive?
As I sat in the Hanged Man’s stillness tonight and saw the light, I also saw the prow of a huge ocean liner cutting through the light, coming right toward me. I don’t know yet what this means, but I feel I am moving forward somehow, whether I can see it or not. I am reminded of how, on the cruises that I’ve taken, you are in the middle of a vast ocean and can see nothing around you for miles and miles, yet you are moving speedily through the water without any sense of that movement at all. I think this is the Hanged Man’s message for me tonight.
What’s yours? What does he have to say to you?